I am a pedophile in my early 40’s and my life has not been easy. I understand that most people’s lives aren’t easy, but then most people aren’t cursed with the least desirable form of sexuality imaginable. The good news is, I have never acted on my pedophilic attractions. Specifically, I am primarily attracted both emotionally and sexually to preteen boys but also to girls in the same age range, although not quite as much. I see my pedophilia as a burden and a curse and every single day is a struggle.

I am a pedophile in my early 40’s and my life has not been easy. I understand that most people’s lives aren’t easy, but then most people aren’t cursed with the least desirable form of sexuality imaginable. The good news is, I have never acted on my pedophilic attractions. Specifically, I am primarily attracted both emotionally and sexually to preteen boys but also to girls in the same age range, although not quite as much. I see my pedophilia as a burden and a curse and every single day is a struggle.

4 November 2018

the (not) reasons i’m anti-contact
brett daywalker

Instead of talking about what my reasons for being anti-contact are, I want to go into what my reasons for being anti contact aren’t.

4 November 2018

you’re a monster, piece of shit, danger to children, etc
brett daywalker

The god’s honest truth of the matter is, hearing those types of things makes me feel nothing. Absolutely nothing at all.

2 October 2018

and on that day, i knew what i was
brett daywalker

The second that explanation finished leaving her mouth, I knew it. I knew that’s what I was and what I was becoming. Now I had word for it.

Instead of talking about what my reasons for being anti-contact are, I want to go into what my reasons for being anti contact aren’t.

The god’s honest truth of the matter is, hearing those types of things makes me feel nothing. Absolutely nothing at all.

The second that explanation finished leaving her mouth, I knew it. I knew that’s what I was and what I was becoming. Now I had word for it.

18 July 2019

where pedophilia and hebephilia overlap
brett daywalker

Just felt I needed to clarify a couple things regarding pedophilia vs hebephilia and point out that, while they can be two distinct and different things, there is a bit of overlap between the two.

4 June 2019

suicidal thoughts vs being suicidal
brett daywalker

The first time I had a suicidal thought I was in 4th grade. That means I would have been 9 or 10.

4 November 2018

the (not) reasons i’m anti-contact
brett daywalker

Instead of talking about what my reasons for being anti-contact are, I want to go into what my reasons for being anti contact aren’t.

4 November 2018

you’re a monster, piece of shit, danger to children, etc
brett daywalker

The god’s honest truth of the matter is, hearing those types of things makes me feel nothing. Absolutely nothing at all.

8 October 2018

the tragedy of child sex dolls and artificial cp
brett daywalker

No children have been harmed, and there is no evidence that the people viewing such media have or will harm children, but they have been made criminals anyway.

2 October 2018

and on that day, i knew what i was
brett daywalker

The second that explanation finished leaving her mouth, I knew it. I knew that’s what I was and what I was becoming. Now I had word for it.

2 October 2018

i am brett. i am a pedophile. here is my story
brett daywalker

To tell the whole story, I’d need to write a book. A very long and fucked-up book. We’ll call this, the ultra, ultra abridged version.

1 September 2016

jacob wetterling's killer danny heinrich, and 14 year old me.
brett daywalker

I’ll never forget when I first learned of the Wetterling abduction. I was 14 years old at the time and was sitting in the Atlanta airport.

Just felt I needed to clarify a couple things regarding pedophilia vs hebephilia and point out that, while they can be two distinct and different things, there is a bit of overlap between the two.

The first time I had a suicidal thought I was in 4th grade. That means I would have been 9 or 10.

Instead of talking about what my reasons for being anti-contact are, I want to go into what my reasons for being anti contact aren’t.

The god’s honest truth of the matter is, hearing those types of things makes me feel nothing. Absolutely nothing at all.

No children have been harmed, and there is no evidence that the people viewing such media have or will harm children, but they have been made criminals anyway.

The second that explanation finished leaving her mouth, I knew it. I knew that’s what I was and what I was becoming. Now I had word for it.

To tell the whole story, I’d need to write a book. A very long and fucked-up book. We’ll call this, the ultra, ultra abridged version.

I’ll never forget when I first learned of the Wetterling abduction. I was 14 years old at the time and was sitting in the Atlanta airport.

thepword is a collection of 220 articles, blogs and podcasts in the voices of pedophiles who oppose adult child sexual contact and exploitation.

Our content is frequently removed from mainstream social media or blog sites because of what we are and the fact we talk about it.

Our side of the conversation continues here.

thepword is a collection of 220 articles, blogs and podcasts in the voices of pedophiles who oppose adult child sexual contact and exploitation.

Our content is frequently removed from mainstream social media or blog sites because of what we are and the fact we talk about it.

Our side of the conversation continues here.