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|  | | 23 May 2025
poem: winter visit, 1994 benjamin harker I didn’t sleep and, trapped in January 1994 in Stepney, in a single Victorian room, / I reached for a timetable |
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|  | | 21 May 2025
poem: mole, 1991 benjamin harker a dark poem from a dark place |
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|  | | 20 May 2025
not a question of guilt iceground At 11, I left the countryside for a big city in Columbia. One day, a 20 year old man gained my trust after a long time talking. He had a network of child exploitation and I fell into it. |
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|  | | 19 May 2025
poem: a salesman, 1991 benjamin harker Life's a banquet, his son had to beam, / and most sons of bitches are starving. |
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|  | | 17 May 2025
a coming out guide for brave maps brandon goletzski People need to know that someone they love is a pedophile. If you're considering coming out to someone, here are my tips for doing it well |
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|  | | 17 May 2025
poem: van de graaff, 1990 benjamin harker At height on a plastic box, / feet off earth, your hand / spanned that chromy globe |
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|  | | 15 May 2025
poem: fleisch, 1989 benjamin harker One day in German, blond arrogant boy, / you engaged me unexpectedly. / Before too long I punched your nose,
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|  | | 13 May 2025
do maps disown the p word? lecter Some people say the term MAP is synonymous with pedophile. Others act like choosing the map label means rejecting the pedophile label. Neither is actually true to our experience. |
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|  | | 13 May 2025
poem: a theft, 1988 benjamin harker It was only a stolen kiss, / on the cheek, snaffled by darting in / over your shoulder, during registration, / while you talked to your friend, |
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|  | | 12 May 2025
map fallacy 2: porn fallacy bly Why do people believe that all MAPs use illegal material? |
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|  | | 11 May 2025
poem: ants, 1986 benjamin harker There was something familiar / about the way you milled, accelerated / when that little playground rock / was first upturned |
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|  | | 10 May 2025
map fallacy 1: molester fallacy bly Why do people believe that all MAPs are child molesters when it isn't true? |
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|  | | 9 May 2025
poem: adored benjamin harker A poem to a life love |
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|  | | 8 May 2025
the map fallacy: introduction bly Introduction to a series of posts looking at popular myths about pedophiles/MAPs |
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|  | | 7 May 2025
poem: brian, 1981 benjamin harker Brian had something / I did not / a lump |
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|  | | 6 May 2025
never say die: the hard rules of suicide and map talk bly We deal with the topic of suicide similarly to the topic of pedophilia: denial, pre-formed narratives and a fear of listening to details of the truth. |
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|  | | 6 May 2025
on mary oliver's wild geese james peak Unrequited love, impossible love, stupid, foolish love. My heart is broken, but so is the poet’s. |
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|  | | 5 May 2025
poem: little knot, 1983 benjamin harker Three fingers are the promises, Akela said, taking a finger of his own and swirling it around the circle of my thumb and little finger |
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|  | | 4 May 2025
two way mirror: pedophiles coming out to one another bly Two people simultaneously and silently ask, I'm one of the good ones, but are you? |
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|  | | 3 May 2025
poem: earliest memory, 1977 benjamin harker I only have as negatives / yellow/navy baby reins |
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|  | | 2 May 2025
the rest of the list bly A new podcast from the BBC highlights the gap between the popular assumption that known pedophiles are removed somehow from society and the reality that they are not. Why does this gap exist? |
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|  | | 2 May 2025
nitro in person py He dropped me off at the airport one last time, and he hugged me again. He wasn't crying this time. Instead, he mentioned that it may not be the last time he'd see me. But it was. |
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|  | | 1 May 2025
poem: glass door, 1983 benjamin harker And I, a head full of bricks, swung thoughtless / around the top post, through the gap, crashed / through the surface of that great, glass, perpendicular sea. |
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|  | | 30 April 2025
in april, i open my bill benjamin harker Paedophiles do not pursue the lives of cuckoos purposefully. We begin loved and welcomed. We are babies, then children and we grow up alongside you. |
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|  | | 29 April 2025
good freaks and good friends charlie keyes In my mid-twenties. I found VirPed. I read words that were my thoughts, and my experiences. And I cannot express how good that felt. |
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|  | | 23 April 2025
nitro: a community says goodbye virped members Nitro, who has died aged 73, is remembered by members of the VirPed community. |
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|  | | 22 April 2025
lawful good: writing a nomap character tom jones As I wrote the scenes where his attractions are revealed, it was my own coming out story all over again. |
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|  | | 15 April 2025
nitro's final thoughts nitro I am a pedophile. I've made over 18,000 posts on the VirPed forum since 2015. I am dying. |
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|  | | 8 April 2025
mouse trapped: i was channel 4's masked pedophile anonymous In 2023, I appeared anonymously with a Channel 4 panel talking about my sexual attraction to children. It's clear we don't yet know how to have this conversation. |
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|  | | 1 April 2025
is pedophilia an orientation or a disorder? bly The key question that public and experts are debating to understand the nature of attraction to children. |
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23 May 2025
poem: winter visit, 1994 benjamin harkerI didn’t sleep and, trapped in January 1994 in Stepney, in a single Victorian room, / I reached for a timetable |
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21 May 2025
poem: mole, 1991 benjamin harkera dark poem from a dark place |
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20 May 2025
not a question of guilt icegroundAt 11, I left the countryside for a big city in Columbia. One day, a 20 year old man gained my trust after a long time talking. He had a network of child exploitation and I fell into it. |
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19 May 2025
poem: a salesman, 1991 benjamin harkerLife's a banquet, his son had to beam, / and most sons of bitches are starving. |
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17 May 2025
a coming out guide for brave maps brandon goletzskiPeople need to know that someone they love is a pedophile. If you're considering coming out to someone, here are my tips for doing it well |
|
17 May 2025
poem: van de graaff, 1990 benjamin harkerAt height on a plastic box, / feet off earth, your hand / spanned that chromy globe |
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15 May 2025
poem: fleisch, 1989 benjamin harkerOne day in German, blond arrogant boy, / you engaged me unexpectedly. / Before too long I punched your nose,
|
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13 May 2025
do maps disown the p word? lecterSome people say the term MAP is synonymous with pedophile. Others act like choosing the map label means rejecting the pedophile label. Neither is actually true to our experience. |
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13 May 2025
poem: a theft, 1988 benjamin harkerIt was only a stolen kiss, / on the cheek, snaffled by darting in / over your shoulder, during registration, / while you talked to your friend, |
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12 May 2025
map fallacy 2: porn fallacy blyWhy do people believe that all MAPs use illegal material? |
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11 May 2025
poem: ants, 1986 benjamin harkerThere was something familiar / about the way you milled, accelerated / when that little playground rock / was first upturned |
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10 May 2025
map fallacy 1: molester fallacy blyWhy do people believe that all MAPs are child molesters when it isn't true? |
|
9 May 2025
poem: adored benjamin harkerA poem to a life love |
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8 May 2025
the map fallacy: introduction blyIntroduction to a series of posts looking at popular myths about pedophiles/MAPs |
|
7 May 2025
poem: brian, 1981 benjamin harkerBrian had something / I did not / a lump |
|
6 May 2025
never say die: the hard rules of suicide and map talk blyWe deal with the topic of suicide similarly to the topic of pedophilia: denial, pre-formed narratives and a fear of listening to details of the truth. |
|
6 May 2025
on mary oliver's wild geese james peakUnrequited love, impossible love, stupid, foolish love. My heart is broken, but so is the poet’s. |
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5 May 2025
poem: little knot, 1983 benjamin harkerThree fingers are the promises, Akela said, taking a finger of his own and swirling it around the circle of my thumb and little finger |
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4 May 2025
two way mirror: pedophiles coming out to one another blyTwo people simultaneously and silently ask, I'm one of the good ones, but are you? |
|
3 May 2025
poem: earliest memory, 1977 benjamin harkerI only have as negatives / yellow/navy baby reins |
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2 May 2025
the rest of the list blyA new podcast from the BBC highlights the gap between the popular assumption that known pedophiles are removed somehow from society and the reality that they are not. Why does this gap exist? |
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2 May 2025
nitro in person pyHe dropped me off at the airport one last time, and he hugged me again. He wasn't crying this time. Instead, he mentioned that it may not be the last time he'd see me. But it was. |
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1 May 2025
poem: glass door, 1983 benjamin harkerAnd I, a head full of bricks, swung thoughtless / around the top post, through the gap, crashed / through the surface of that great, glass, perpendicular sea. |
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30 April 2025
in april, i open my bill benjamin harkerPaedophiles do not pursue the lives of cuckoos purposefully. We begin loved and welcomed. We are babies, then children and we grow up alongside you. |
|
29 April 2025
good freaks and good friends charlie keyesIn my mid-twenties. I found VirPed. I read words that were my thoughts, and my experiences. And I cannot express how good that felt. |
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23 April 2025
nitro: a community says goodbye virped membersNitro, who has died aged 73, is remembered by members of the VirPed community. |
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22 April 2025
lawful good: writing a nomap character tom jonesAs I wrote the scenes where his attractions are revealed, it was my own coming out story all over again. |
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15 April 2025
nitro's final thoughts nitroI am a pedophile. I've made over 18,000 posts on the VirPed forum since 2015. I am dying. |
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8 April 2025
mouse trapped: i was channel 4's masked pedophile anonymousIn 2023, I appeared anonymously with a Channel 4 panel talking about my sexual attraction to children. It's clear we don't yet know how to have this conversation. |
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1 April 2025
is pedophilia an orientation or a disorder? blyThe key question that public and experts are debating to understand the nature of attraction to children. |
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