23 April 2025

nitro: a community says goodbye
virped members

Nitro, who has died aged 73, is remembered by members of the VirPed community.

22 April 2025

lawful good: writing a nomap character
tom jones

As I wrote the scenes where his attractions are revealed, it was my own coming out story all over again.

15 April 2025

nitro's final thoughts
nitro

I am a pedophile. I've made over 18,000 posts on the VirPed forum since 2015. I am dying.

8 April 2025

mouse trapped: i was channel 4's masked pedophile
anonymous

In 2023, I appeared anonymously with a Channel 4 panel talking about my sexual attraction to children. It's clear we don't yet know how to have this conversation.

1 April 2025

is pedophilia an orientation or a disorder?
bly

The key question that public and experts are debating to understand the nature of attraction to children.

25 March 2025

life is not a decision: a pedophile parent
charlie keyes

I decided, with every factor in play, that above all, I was going to be a damned good parent

18 March 2025

caught between two stigmas
markus

I was sexually abused as a child. I am also sexually attracted to children. I wanted support for abuse survivors but was turned down. So where do people like me go?

11 March 2025

i didn't figure out i was a pedophile until my 50s
ethan edwards

Looking back, it was there from puberty, but I was interpreting it as the fondness many adults feel for children.

4 March 2025

two pedophiles; one moral binary; no dogs
bly

I'd give a lot for a crime-free thriller instead, but No Dogs Allowed tells a lot of truth about a young pedophile's life

25 February 2025

the night i said the p word
rakkaus keksit

I’d agreed to meet my long-time friend one last time before I left. I hadn’t taken into account hash or female intuition.

18 February 2025

a year of therapy
carolus magnus

When I started, I wanted that magic pill. I wanted the lobotomy that would pull this malignant sector of my brain out.

11 February 2025

a minor pedophile reached out... into the wild west
bly

So I sought out people like me. I would go on those sketchy teen/tween chat rooms, explaining that I was a minor looking for someone to talk to.

4 February 2025

no dogs allowed discussed by three pedophiles
markus

No Dogs Allowed dares to tell a realistic story about us and breaks with a false image that has been painted too often.

28 January 2025

review: no dogs allowed
py

A new film portrays the life of a teenager who discovers he is sexually attracted to children and how he tries to cope.

21 January 2025

review: manticore
rakkaus keksit

Disgraced director's film brings an elevated aesthetic to a contemporary tragedy of dark desires, but does it get the situation right?

14 January 2025

a tale of two therapists
sammy jenkis

I was desperate to talk about this with someone. Could I risk it a second time?

7 January 2025

poem: baptism with sexual autocannibalism
brandon goletzski

i had a dream / of a man from years ago / alone after jerking off. his head

7 January 2025

at peace with my pedophilia
ethan edwards

Since I sought with passion the sort of partner that society approved of, there was little impetus to look at whether I had any other attractions.

1 January 2025

poem: coming out day
brandon goletzski

i want to take my clothes off in front of you / then my skin too / toss it aside rumpled & empty

1 January 2025

pedophiles who don't excuse child sexual abuse
the p word

What is this website? A place where you can hear a voice that is rarely allowed to speak. But people who love free speech do not love ours.

31 December 2024

what we tried to say on bluesky and twitter
bly

VirPed's accounts have been banned (twice) from Twitter and once from BlueSky. We had one main thing to say...

14 November 2024

a note on the costs of self-hatred
leonard johnston

Empathy is important, especially for those who are most hated - even by me.

16 June 2024

an obituary for a gay man
leonard johnston

I don't think of myself as gay. Their vibrant culture is not mine. And yet, their stories are my stories.

17 December 2023

reflections, learnings, and critiques on an amazing pedophilia study
leonard johnston

Aella's survey found thousands of people with a sexual interest in kids. How should we interpret this?

19 April 2023

in which leonard processes his feelings
leonard johnston

2 of 4: I was skeptical about the claims of those saying they'd been "silenced". And then it happened to me.

11 April 2023

fantasies of adult-child sex disgust even the sex-positive public
ethan edwards

What are the limits pedophiles should self-impose on their sexual fantasies?

11 April 2023

how can you want to keep an attraction you can never act on?
ethan edwards

Given that we are for moral reasons totally unable to express our sexuality with children, our right to private sexual fantasy would seem imore important.

2 January 2023

what does chatgpt think the world thinks of us?
leonard johnston

ChatGPT answers questions about pedophilia differently depending on what and how you ask it.

25 December 2022

happy holidays!
leonard johnston

From the bottom of my heart, Happy Holidays!

30 October 2022

what made quora change its mind?
leonard johnston

1 of 4: With over 1m views on 141 answers over six years, my Quora account was banned. Why?

Nitro, who has died aged 73, is remembered by members of the VirPed community.

As I wrote the scenes where his attractions are revealed, it was my own coming out story all over again.

I am a pedophile. I've made over 18,000 posts on the VirPed forum since 2015. I am dying.

In 2023, I appeared anonymously with a Channel 4 panel talking about my sexual attraction to children. It's clear we don't yet know how to have this conversation.

The key question that public and experts are debating to understand the nature of attraction to children.

I decided, with every factor in play, that above all, I was going to be a damned good parent

I was sexually abused as a child. I am also sexually attracted to children. I wanted support for abuse survivors but was turned down. So where do people like me go?

Looking back, it was there from puberty, but I was interpreting it as the fondness many adults feel for children.

I'd give a lot for a crime-free thriller instead, but No Dogs Allowed tells a lot of truth about a young pedophile's life

I’d agreed to meet my long-time friend one last time before I left. I hadn’t taken into account hash or female intuition.

When I started, I wanted that magic pill. I wanted the lobotomy that would pull this malignant sector of my brain out.

So I sought out people like me. I would go on those sketchy teen/tween chat rooms, explaining that I was a minor looking for someone to talk to.

No Dogs Allowed dares to tell a realistic story about us and breaks with a false image that has been painted too often.

A new film portrays the life of a teenager who discovers he is sexually attracted to children and how he tries to cope.

Disgraced director's film brings an elevated aesthetic to a contemporary tragedy of dark desires, but does it get the situation right?

I was desperate to talk about this with someone. Could I risk it a second time?

i had a dream / of a man from years ago / alone after jerking off. his head

Since I sought with passion the sort of partner that society approved of, there was little impetus to look at whether I had any other attractions.

i want to take my clothes off in front of you / then my skin too / toss it aside rumpled & empty

What is this website? A place where you can hear a voice that is rarely allowed to speak. But people who love free speech do not love ours.

VirPed's accounts have been banned (twice) from Twitter and once from BlueSky. We had one main thing to say...

Empathy is important, especially for those who are most hated - even by me.

I don't think of myself as gay. Their vibrant culture is not mine. And yet, their stories are my stories.

Aella's survey found thousands of people with a sexual interest in kids. How should we interpret this?

2 of 4: I was skeptical about the claims of those saying they'd been "silenced". And then it happened to me.

What are the limits pedophiles should self-impose on their sexual fantasies?

Given that we are for moral reasons totally unable to express our sexuality with children, our right to private sexual fantasy would seem imore important.

ChatGPT answers questions about pedophilia differently depending on what and how you ask it.

From the bottom of my heart, Happy Holidays!

1 of 4: With over 1m views on 141 answers over six years, my Quora account was banned. Why?

the p word is a collection of 297 articles, blogs, podcasts and threads in the voices of pedophiles and others who oppose adult child sexual contact and sexual exploitation of children.

Despite our mainstream views, this content is frequently removed from social media or blog sites because openly discussing pedophile attractions or avowing them are not tolerated.

Our side of the conversation continues here.

editor at the p word net

Except where stated, all images are AI and do not depict real people

the p word is a collection of 297 articles, blogs, podcasts and threads in the voices of pedophiles and others who oppose adult child sexual contact and sexual exploitation of children.

Despite our mainstream views, this content is frequently removed from social media or blog sites because openly discussing pedophile attractions or avowing them are not tolerated.

Our side of the conversation continues here.

editor at the p word net

Except where stated, all images are AI and do not depict real people