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| |  | | 14 January 2025
a tale of two therapists
sammy jenkis I was desperate to talk about this with someone. Could I risk it a second time? |
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| |  | | 7 January 2025
at peace with my pedophilia
ethan edwards Since I sought with passion the sort of partner that society approved of, there was little impetus to look at whether I had any other attractions. |
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| |  | | 1 January 2025
poem: coming out day
brandon goletzski i want to take my clothes off in front of you / then my skin too / toss it aside rumpled & empty |
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| |  | | 14 November 2024
a note on the costs of self-hatred
leonard johnston Empathy is important, especially for those who are most hated - even by me. |
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| |  | | 16 June 2024
an obituary for a gay man
leonard johnston I don't think of myself as gay. Their vibrant culture is not mine. And yet, their stories are my stories. |
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| |  | | 17 December 2023
reflections, learnings, and critiques on an amazing pedophilia study
leonard johnston Aella's survey found thousands of people with a sexual interest in kids. How should we interpret this? |
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| |  | | 19 April 2023
in which leonard processes his feelings
leonard johnston 2 of 4: I was skeptical about the claims of those saying they'd been "silenced". And then it happened to me.
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| |  | | 25 December 2022
happy holidays!
leonard johnston From the bottom of my heart, Happy Holidays! |
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| |  | | 30 October 2022
what made quora change its mind?
leonard johnston 1 of 4: With over 1m views on 141 answers over six years, my Quora account was banned. Why? |
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| |  | | 8 May 2022
star trek, me, and pedophilia
leonard johnston You can learn a lot about me from Star Trek. It's shaped my perception of myself and my pedophilia. |
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| |  | | 26 November 2021
let's talk about disgust
leonard johnston Should we be disgusted by artificial CP or other ways pedophiles like me find sexual satisfaction? |
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| |  | | 2 August 2021
personal reflections on difficult issues
leonard johnston 6 of 6: My personal reflections on what I learned in this series. |
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| |  | | 20 June 2021
the mysteries of happiness, and how i found it as a pedophile
leonard johnston I've never seen a self-help article aimed at pedophiles, so maybe it's time for one. |
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| |  | | 27 April 2021
interview - the journey of leaving child pornography
leonard johnston 5 of 6: Anywhere that CP is discussed, no one talks about how they stopped viewing it. Now someone has. |
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| |  | | 11 February 2021
how do you end up viewing cp, anyway?
leonard johnston 4 of 6: I received a message from a man arrested for viewing CP. I asked him to tell me about it. |
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| |  | | 30 September 2020
is artificial child pornography a good outlet?
leonard johnston 2 of 6: Is artificial CP moral? Might it lead to more harm? |
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| |  | | 24 September 2020
becoming comfortable with my attractions
py A MAP's Journey from Anguish to Acceptance |
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| |  | | 2 June 2020
a comment on the times
leonard johnston How being in a minority helps me to view other minorities. |
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| |  | | 25 May 2020
what will you be like twenty years from now? setting your boundaries.
leonard johnston How do you live a safe life? For me, an important part is understanding and sticking to my boundaries. |
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| |  | | 24 April 2020
discoveries on attraction and life partnerships
leonard johnston The evolution of my sexuality and my search for a life partnership. |
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| |  | | 18 April 2020
moments of joy
leonard johnston Written during the pandemic. Take a moment, reflect. Even in difficult times, find moments of joy in your life. |
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| |  | | 22 March 2020
a normal teenager... just a pedophile
leonard johnston For some teenagers, their sexuality brings loneliness. They're not sure who they can talk to. I couldn't talk to anyone. |
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| |  | | 8 March 2020
so you're a pedophile. now what?
leonard johnston You can be a happy and morally good person, and stay true to yourself, even with these attractions. |
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| |  | | 1 December 2019
we have to protect children, even the ones you hate
bly rede A group of adolescents, many thousands strong, are struggling with self-hatred and fear, and most people don't think that's a problem. |
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| |  | | 23 June 2019
thread: mutual coming out is hard
bly rede It's hard to come out to regular people, but it can even be hard to come out to another pedophile. |
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| |  | | 4 June 2019
suicidal thoughts vs being suicidal
brett daywalker The first time I had a suicidal thought I was in 4th grade. That means I would have been 9 or 10. |
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| |  | | 5 March 2019
attraction is not action
bly rede In my teenaged years, I had access to a therapist, but I just never brought it up and the sessions ended without it ever being mentioned. |
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| |  | | 25 February 2019
still a mother's son
elliott bateman What parents should know regarding MAP children, A MAP and his mother discuss his coming out process, his struggle with his attractions, and finding therapeutic support. |
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| |  | | 20 February 2019
suicide prevention with evert
evert Evert and Candice discuss suicide prevention among MAPs and the differences between good treatment for MAPs and sex offender treatment. |
|
| | | | 4 November 2018
you're a monster, piece of shit, danger to children, etc
brett daywalker The god's honest truth of the matter is, hearing those types of things makes me feel nothing. Absolutely nothing at all. |
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|
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14 January 2025
a tale of two therapists
sammy jenkisI was desperate to talk about this with someone. Could I risk it a second time? |
|
7 January 2025
at peace with my pedophilia
ethan edwardsSince I sought with passion the sort of partner that society approved of, there was little impetus to look at whether I had any other attractions. |
|
1 January 2025
poem: coming out day
brandon goletzskii want to take my clothes off in front of you / then my skin too / toss it aside rumpled & empty |
|
14 November 2024
a note on the costs of self-hatred
leonard johnstonEmpathy is important, especially for those who are most hated - even by me. |
|
16 June 2024
an obituary for a gay man
leonard johnstonI don't think of myself as gay. Their vibrant culture is not mine. And yet, their stories are my stories. |
|
17 December 2023
reflections, learnings, and critiques on an amazing pedophilia study
leonard johnstonAella's survey found thousands of people with a sexual interest in kids. How should we interpret this? |
|
19 April 2023
in which leonard processes his feelings
leonard johnston2 of 4: I was skeptical about the claims of those saying they'd been "silenced". And then it happened to me.
|
|
25 December 2022
happy holidays!
leonard johnstonFrom the bottom of my heart, Happy Holidays! |
|
30 October 2022
what made quora change its mind?
leonard johnston1 of 4: With over 1m views on 141 answers over six years, my Quora account was banned. Why? |
|
8 May 2022
star trek, me, and pedophilia
leonard johnstonYou can learn a lot about me from Star Trek. It's shaped my perception of myself and my pedophilia. |
|
26 November 2021
let's talk about disgust
leonard johnstonShould we be disgusted by artificial CP or other ways pedophiles like me find sexual satisfaction? |
|
2 August 2021
personal reflections on difficult issues
leonard johnston6 of 6: My personal reflections on what I learned in this series. |
|
20 June 2021
the mysteries of happiness, and how i found it as a pedophile
leonard johnstonI've never seen a self-help article aimed at pedophiles, so maybe it's time for one. |
|
27 April 2021
interview - the journey of leaving child pornography
leonard johnston5 of 6: Anywhere that CP is discussed, no one talks about how they stopped viewing it. Now someone has. |
|
11 February 2021
how do you end up viewing cp, anyway?
leonard johnston4 of 6: I received a message from a man arrested for viewing CP. I asked him to tell me about it. |
|
30 September 2020
is artificial child pornography a good outlet?
leonard johnston2 of 6: Is artificial CP moral? Might it lead to more harm? |
|
24 September 2020
becoming comfortable with my attractions
pyA MAP's Journey from Anguish to Acceptance |
|
2 June 2020
a comment on the times
leonard johnstonHow being in a minority helps me to view other minorities. |
|
25 May 2020
what will you be like twenty years from now? setting your boundaries.
leonard johnstonHow do you live a safe life? For me, an important part is understanding and sticking to my boundaries. |
|
24 April 2020
discoveries on attraction and life partnerships
leonard johnstonThe evolution of my sexuality and my search for a life partnership. |
|
18 April 2020
moments of joy
leonard johnstonWritten during the pandemic. Take a moment, reflect. Even in difficult times, find moments of joy in your life. |
|
22 March 2020
a normal teenager... just a pedophile
leonard johnstonFor some teenagers, their sexuality brings loneliness. They're not sure who they can talk to. I couldn't talk to anyone. |
|
8 March 2020
so you're a pedophile. now what?
leonard johnstonYou can be a happy and morally good person, and stay true to yourself, even with these attractions. |
|
1 December 2019
we have to protect children, even the ones you hate
bly redeA group of adolescents, many thousands strong, are struggling with self-hatred and fear, and most people don't think that's a problem. |
|
23 June 2019
thread: mutual coming out is hard
bly redeIt's hard to come out to regular people, but it can even be hard to come out to another pedophile. |
|
4 June 2019
suicidal thoughts vs being suicidal
brett daywalkerThe first time I had a suicidal thought I was in 4th grade. That means I would have been 9 or 10. |
|
5 March 2019
attraction is not action
bly redeIn my teenaged years, I had access to a therapist, but I just never brought it up and the sessions ended without it ever being mentioned. |
|
25 February 2019
still a mother's son
elliott batemanWhat parents should know regarding MAP children, A MAP and his mother discuss his coming out process, his struggle with his attractions, and finding therapeutic support. |
|
20 February 2019
suicide prevention with evert
evertEvert and Candice discuss suicide prevention among MAPs and the differences between good treatment for MAPs and sex offender treatment. |
|
4 November 2018
you're a monster, piece of shit, danger to children, etc
brett daywalkerThe god's honest truth of the matter is, hearing those types of things makes me feel nothing. Absolutely nothing at all. |
|
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