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|  | | 6 May 2025
on mary oliver's wild geese james peak Unrequited love, impossible love, stupid, foolish love. My heart is broken, but so is the poet’s. |
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|  | | 5 May 2025
poem: little knot, 1983 benjamin harker I made him the sign. / Three fingers are the promises, / Akela said, |
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|  | | 4 May 2025
two way mirror: pedophiles coming out to one another bly Two people simultaneously and silently ask, I'm one of the good ones, but are you? |
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|  | | 3 May 2025
poem: earliest memory, 1977 benjamin harker I do not remember / my mother’s chin / whiskers as she / lifted and fed |
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|  | | 2 May 2025
nitro in person py He dropped me off at the airport one last time, and he hugged me again. He wasn't crying this time. Instead, he mentioned that it may not be the last time he'd see me. But it was. |
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|  | | 1 May 2025
poem: glass door, 1983 benjamin harker And I, a head full of bricks, swung thoughtless / around the top post, through the gap, crashed / through the surface of that great, glass, perpendicular sea. |
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|  | | 30 April 2025
in april, i open my bill benjamin harker Paedophiles do not pursue the lives of cuckoos purposefully. We begin loved and welcomed. We are babies, then children and we grow up alongside you. |
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|  | | 22 April 2025
lawful good: writing a nomap character tom jones As I wrote the scenes where his attractions are revealed, it was my own coming out story all over again. |
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|  | | 15 April 2025
nitro's final thoughts nitro I am a pedophile. I've made over 18,000 posts on the VirPed forum since 2015. I am dying. |
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|  | | 8 April 2025
mouse trapped: i was channel 4's masked pedophile anonymous In 2023, I appeared anonymously with a Channel 4 panel talking about my sexual attraction to children. It's clear we don't yet know how to have this conversation. |
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|  | | 25 March 2025
life is not a decision: a pedophile parent charlie keyes I decided, with every factor in play, that above all, I was going to be a damned good parent |
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|  | | 18 March 2025
caught between two stigmas markus I was sexually abused as a child. I am also sexually attracted to children. I wanted support for abuse survivors but was turned down. So where do people like me go? |
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|  | | 11 March 2025
i didn't figure out i was a pedophile until my 50s ethan edwards Looking back, it was there from puberty, but I was interpreting it as the fondness many adults feel for children. |
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|  | | 25 February 2025
the night i said the p word rakkaus keksit I’d agreed to meet my long-time friend one last time before I left. I hadn’t taken into account hash or female intuition. |
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|  | | 14 January 2025
a tale of two therapists sammy jenkis I was desperate to talk about this with someone. Could I risk it a second time? |
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|  | | 7 January 2025
at peace with my pedophilia ethan edwards Since I sought with passion the sort of partner that society approved of, there was little impetus to look at whether I had any other attractions. |
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|  | | 1 January 2025
poem: coming out day brandon goletzski i want to take my clothes off in front of you / then my skin too / toss it aside rumpled & empty |
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|  | | 14 November 2024
a note on the costs of self-hatred leonard johnston Empathy is important, especially for those who are most hated - even by me. |
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|  | | 16 June 2024
an obituary for a gay man leonard johnston I don't think of myself as gay. Their vibrant culture is not mine. And yet, their stories are my stories. |
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|  | | 17 December 2023
reflections, learnings, and critiques on an amazing pedophilia study leonard johnston Aella's survey found thousands of people with a sexual interest in kids. How should we interpret this? |
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|  | | 19 April 2023
in which leonard processes his feelings leonard johnston 2 of 4: I was skeptical about the claims of those saying they'd been "silenced". And then it happened to me.
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|  | | 25 December 2022
happy holidays! leonard johnston From the bottom of my heart, Happy Holidays! |
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|  | | 30 October 2022
what made quora change its mind? leonard johnston 1 of 4: With over 1m views on 141 answers over six years, my Quora account was banned. Why? |
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|  | | 8 May 2022
star trek, me, and pedophilia leonard johnston You can learn a lot about me from Star Trek. It's shaped my perception of myself and my pedophilia. |
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|  | | 26 November 2021
let's talk about disgust leonard johnston Should we be disgusted by artificial CP or other ways pedophiles like me find sexual satisfaction? |
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|  | | 2 August 2021
personal reflections on difficult issues leonard johnston 6 of 6: My personal reflections on what I learned in this series. |
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|  | | 20 June 2021
the mysteries of happiness, and how i found it as a pedophile leonard johnston I've never seen a self-help article aimed at pedophiles, so maybe it's time for one. |
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|  | | 27 April 2021
interview - the journey of leaving child pornography leonard johnston 5 of 6: Anywhere that CP is discussed, no one talks about how they stopped viewing it. Now someone has. |
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|  | | 11 February 2021
how do you end up viewing cp, anyway? leonard johnston 4 of 6: I received a message from a man arrested for viewing CP. I asked him to tell me about it. |
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|  | | 30 September 2020
is artificial child pornography a good outlet? leonard johnston 2 of 6: Is artificial CP moral? Might it lead to more harm? |
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6 May 2025
on mary oliver's wild geese james peakUnrequited love, impossible love, stupid, foolish love. My heart is broken, but so is the poet’s. |
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5 May 2025
poem: little knot, 1983 benjamin harkerI made him the sign. / Three fingers are the promises, / Akela said, |
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4 May 2025
two way mirror: pedophiles coming out to one another blyTwo people simultaneously and silently ask, I'm one of the good ones, but are you? |
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3 May 2025
poem: earliest memory, 1977 benjamin harkerI do not remember / my mother’s chin / whiskers as she / lifted and fed |
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2 May 2025
nitro in person pyHe dropped me off at the airport one last time, and he hugged me again. He wasn't crying this time. Instead, he mentioned that it may not be the last time he'd see me. But it was. |
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1 May 2025
poem: glass door, 1983 benjamin harkerAnd I, a head full of bricks, swung thoughtless / around the top post, through the gap, crashed / through the surface of that great, glass, perpendicular sea. |
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30 April 2025
in april, i open my bill benjamin harkerPaedophiles do not pursue the lives of cuckoos purposefully. We begin loved and welcomed. We are babies, then children and we grow up alongside you. |
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22 April 2025
lawful good: writing a nomap character tom jonesAs I wrote the scenes where his attractions are revealed, it was my own coming out story all over again. |
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15 April 2025
nitro's final thoughts nitroI am a pedophile. I've made over 18,000 posts on the VirPed forum since 2015. I am dying. |
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8 April 2025
mouse trapped: i was channel 4's masked pedophile anonymousIn 2023, I appeared anonymously with a Channel 4 panel talking about my sexual attraction to children. It's clear we don't yet know how to have this conversation. |
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25 March 2025
life is not a decision: a pedophile parent charlie keyesI decided, with every factor in play, that above all, I was going to be a damned good parent |
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18 March 2025
caught between two stigmas markusI was sexually abused as a child. I am also sexually attracted to children. I wanted support for abuse survivors but was turned down. So where do people like me go? |
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11 March 2025
i didn't figure out i was a pedophile until my 50s ethan edwardsLooking back, it was there from puberty, but I was interpreting it as the fondness many adults feel for children. |
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25 February 2025
the night i said the p word rakkaus keksitI’d agreed to meet my long-time friend one last time before I left. I hadn’t taken into account hash or female intuition. |
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14 January 2025
a tale of two therapists sammy jenkisI was desperate to talk about this with someone. Could I risk it a second time? |
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7 January 2025
at peace with my pedophilia ethan edwardsSince I sought with passion the sort of partner that society approved of, there was little impetus to look at whether I had any other attractions. |
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1 January 2025
poem: coming out day brandon goletzskii want to take my clothes off in front of you / then my skin too / toss it aside rumpled & empty |
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14 November 2024
a note on the costs of self-hatred leonard johnstonEmpathy is important, especially for those who are most hated - even by me. |
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16 June 2024
an obituary for a gay man leonard johnstonI don't think of myself as gay. Their vibrant culture is not mine. And yet, their stories are my stories. |
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17 December 2023
reflections, learnings, and critiques on an amazing pedophilia study leonard johnstonAella's survey found thousands of people with a sexual interest in kids. How should we interpret this? |
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19 April 2023
in which leonard processes his feelings leonard johnston2 of 4: I was skeptical about the claims of those saying they'd been "silenced". And then it happened to me.
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25 December 2022
happy holidays! leonard johnstonFrom the bottom of my heart, Happy Holidays! |
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30 October 2022
what made quora change its mind? leonard johnston1 of 4: With over 1m views on 141 answers over six years, my Quora account was banned. Why? |
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8 May 2022
star trek, me, and pedophilia leonard johnstonYou can learn a lot about me from Star Trek. It's shaped my perception of myself and my pedophilia. |
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26 November 2021
let's talk about disgust leonard johnstonShould we be disgusted by artificial CP or other ways pedophiles like me find sexual satisfaction? |
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2 August 2021
personal reflections on difficult issues leonard johnston6 of 6: My personal reflections on what I learned in this series. |
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20 June 2021
the mysteries of happiness, and how i found it as a pedophile leonard johnstonI've never seen a self-help article aimed at pedophiles, so maybe it's time for one. |
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27 April 2021
interview - the journey of leaving child pornography leonard johnston5 of 6: Anywhere that CP is discussed, no one talks about how they stopped viewing it. Now someone has. |
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11 February 2021
how do you end up viewing cp, anyway? leonard johnston4 of 6: I received a message from a man arrested for viewing CP. I asked him to tell me about it. |
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30 September 2020
is artificial child pornography a good outlet? leonard johnston2 of 6: Is artificial CP moral? Might it lead to more harm? |
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