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latest: jun 2019 to apr 2025


			8 April 2025 mouse trapped anonymous I appeared anonymously with a Channel 4 panel talking about my sexual attraction to children. It's clear we don't yet know how to have this conversation.

			25 March 2025 life is not a decision: a pedophile parent charlie keyes I decided, with every factor in play, that above all, I was going to be a damned good parent

			18 March 2025 caught between two stigmas markus I was sexually abused as a child. I am also sexually attracted to children. I wanted support for abuse survivors but was turned down. So where do people like me go?

			11 March 2025 i didn't figure out i was a pedophile until my 50s ethan edwards Looking back, it was there from puberty, but I was interpreting it as the fondness many adults feel for children.

			25 February 2025 the night i said the p word rakkaus keksit I’d agreed to meet my long-time friend one last time before I left. I hadn’t taken into account hash or female intuition.

			14 January 2025 a tale of two therapists sammy jenkis I was desperate to talk about this with someone. Could I risk it a second time?

			7 January 2025 at peace with my pedophilia ethan edwards Since I sought with passion the sort of partner that society approved of, there was little impetus to look at whether I had any other attractions.

			1 January 2025 poem: coming out day brandon goletzski i want to take my clothes off in front of you / then my skin too / toss it aside rumpled & empty

			14 November 2024 a note on the costs of self-hatred leonard johnston Empathy is important, especially for those who are most hated - even by me.

			16 June 2024 an obituary for a gay man leonard johnston I don't think of myself as gay. Their vibrant culture is not mine. And yet, their stories are my stories.

			17 December 2023 reflections, learnings, and critiques on an amazing pedophilia study leonard johnston Aella's survey found thousands of people with a sexual interest in kids. How should we interpret this?

			19 April 2023 in which leonard processes his feelings leonard johnston 2 of 4: I was skeptical about the claims of those saying they'd been "silenced". And then it happened to me.

			25 December 2022 happy holidays! leonard johnston From the bottom of my heart, Happy Holidays!

			30 October 2022 what made quora change its mind? leonard johnston 1 of 4: With over 1m views on 141 answers over six years, my Quora account was banned. Why?

			8 May 2022 star trek, me, and pedophilia leonard johnston You can learn a lot about me from Star Trek. It's shaped my perception of myself and my pedophilia.

			26 November 2021 let's talk about disgust leonard johnston Should we be disgusted by artificial CP or other ways pedophiles like me find sexual satisfaction?

			2 August 2021 personal reflections on difficult issues leonard johnston 6 of 6: My personal reflections on what I learned in this series.

			20 June 2021 the mysteries of happiness, and how i found it as a pedophile leonard johnston I've never seen a self-help article aimed at pedophiles, so maybe it's time for one.

			27 April 2021 interview - the journey of leaving child pornography leonard johnston 5 of 6: Anywhere that CP is discussed, no one talks about how they stopped viewing it. Now someone has.

			11 February 2021 how do you end up viewing cp, anyway? leonard johnston 4 of 6: I received a message from a man arrested for viewing CP. I asked him to tell me about it.

			30 September 2020 is artificial child pornography a good outlet? leonard johnston 2 of 6: Is artificial CP moral? Might it lead to more harm?

			24 September 2020 becoming comfortable with my attractions py A MAP's Journey from Anguish to Acceptance

			2 June 2020 a comment on the times leonard johnston How being in a minority helps me to view other minorities.

			24 April 2020 discoveries on attraction and life partnerships leonard johnston The evolution of my sexuality and my search for a life partnership.

			18 April 2020 moments of joy leonard johnston Written during the pandemic. Take a moment, reflect. Even in difficult times, find moments of joy in your life.

			22 March 2020 a normal teenager... just a pedophile leonard johnston For some teenagers, their sexuality brings loneliness. They're not sure who they can talk to. I couldn't talk to anyone.

			8 March 2020 so you're a pedophile. now what? leonard johnston You can be a happy and morally good person, and stay true to yourself, even with these attractions.

			1 December 2019 we have to protect children, even the ones you hate bly A group of adolescents, many thousands strong, are struggling with self-hatred and fear, and most people don't think that's a problem.

			23 June 2019 thread: mutual coming out is hard bly It's hard to come out to regular people, but it can even be hard to come out to another pedophile.

8 April 2025

mouse trapped
anonymous

I appeared anonymously with a Channel 4 panel talking about my sexual attraction to children. It's clear we don't yet know how to have this conversation.

25 March 2025

life is not a decision: a pedophile parent
charlie keyes

I decided, with every factor in play, that above all, I was going to be a damned good parent

18 March 2025

caught between two stigmas
markus

I was sexually abused as a child. I am also sexually attracted to children. I wanted support for abuse survivors but was turned down. So where do people like me go?

11 March 2025

i didn't figure out i was a pedophile until my 50s
ethan edwards

Looking back, it was there from puberty, but I was interpreting it as the fondness many adults feel for children.

25 February 2025

the night i said the p word
rakkaus keksit

I’d agreed to meet my long-time friend one last time before I left. I hadn’t taken into account hash or female intuition.

14 January 2025

a tale of two therapists
sammy jenkis

I was desperate to talk about this with someone. Could I risk it a second time?

7 January 2025

at peace with my pedophilia
ethan edwards

Since I sought with passion the sort of partner that society approved of, there was little impetus to look at whether I had any other attractions.

1 January 2025

poem: coming out day
brandon goletzski

i want to take my clothes off in front of you / then my skin too / toss it aside rumpled & empty

14 November 2024

a note on the costs of self-hatred
leonard johnston

Empathy is important, especially for those who are most hated - even by me.

16 June 2024

an obituary for a gay man
leonard johnston

I don't think of myself as gay. Their vibrant culture is not mine. And yet, their stories are my stories.

17 December 2023

reflections, learnings, and critiques on an amazing pedophilia study
leonard johnston

Aella's survey found thousands of people with a sexual interest in kids. How should we interpret this?

19 April 2023

in which leonard processes his feelings
leonard johnston

2 of 4: I was skeptical about the claims of those saying they'd been "silenced". And then it happened to me.

25 December 2022

happy holidays!
leonard johnston

From the bottom of my heart, Happy Holidays!

30 October 2022

what made quora change its mind?
leonard johnston

1 of 4: With over 1m views on 141 answers over six years, my Quora account was banned. Why?

8 May 2022

star trek, me, and pedophilia
leonard johnston

You can learn a lot about me from Star Trek. It's shaped my perception of myself and my pedophilia.

26 November 2021

let's talk about disgust
leonard johnston

Should we be disgusted by artificial CP or other ways pedophiles like me find sexual satisfaction?

2 August 2021

personal reflections on difficult issues
leonard johnston

6 of 6: My personal reflections on what I learned in this series.

20 June 2021

the mysteries of happiness, and how i found it as a pedophile
leonard johnston

I've never seen a self-help article aimed at pedophiles, so maybe it's time for one.

27 April 2021

interview - the journey of leaving child pornography
leonard johnston

5 of 6: Anywhere that CP is discussed, no one talks about how they stopped viewing it. Now someone has.

11 February 2021

how do you end up viewing cp, anyway?
leonard johnston

4 of 6: I received a message from a man arrested for viewing CP. I asked him to tell me about it.

30 September 2020

is artificial child pornography a good outlet?
leonard johnston

2 of 6: Is artificial CP moral? Might it lead to more harm?

24 September 2020

becoming comfortable with my attractions
py

A MAP's Journey from Anguish to Acceptance

2 June 2020

a comment on the times
leonard johnston

How being in a minority helps me to view other minorities.

24 April 2020

discoveries on attraction and life partnerships
leonard johnston

The evolution of my sexuality and my search for a life partnership.

18 April 2020

moments of joy
leonard johnston

Written during the pandemic. Take a moment, reflect. Even in difficult times, find moments of joy in your life.

22 March 2020

a normal teenager... just a pedophile
leonard johnston

For some teenagers, their sexuality brings loneliness. They're not sure who they can talk to. I couldn't talk to anyone.

8 March 2020

so you're a pedophile. now what?
leonard johnston

You can be a happy and morally good person, and stay true to yourself, even with these attractions.

1 December 2019

we have to protect children, even the ones you hate
bly

A group of adolescents, many thousands strong, are struggling with self-hatred and fear, and most people don't think that's a problem.

23 June 2019

thread: mutual coming out is hard
bly

It's hard to come out to regular people, but it can even be hard to come out to another pedophile.

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