i want to take my clothes off in front of you / then my skin too / toss it aside rumpled & empty

i want to take my clothes off in front of you
then my skin too
toss it aside rumpled & empty
i want to lay what i reveal in front of you
& have you love it
because it's me
& you find a way to love me

you told me to worry about people like me
so i worried about myself
you told me to fear people like me
so i feared what i might become
you told me to hate people like me
so i cut myself in half like a pig on the killing floor

i dug my hands in ripping nerve & tissue looking for that one piece my tearing fingers could extirpate that would make me whole

i found it
& it was not what you wanted it to be
it was everything you told me

here i am
every child i've ever been is layered around me like snake skins i never shed
help me take them off like you’re touching my cheek for the first time
tell me you aren’t going anywhere
tell me i’m okay
tell me you love me even more now
with no buttons, no zipper to secure myself back inside
i’ll never wear myself the same with you

the p word is a collection of 279 articles, blogs, podcasts and threads in the voices of pedophiles and others who oppose adult child sexual contact and sexual exploitation of children. Despite our mainstream views, this content is frequently removed from mainstream social media or blog sites because openly discussing pedophile attractions or avowing them are not tolerated. Our side of the conversation continues here.

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we have to protect children, even the ones you hate

how can you want to keep an attraction you can never act on?

star trek, me, and pedophilia

bly rede

A group of adolescents, many thousands strong, are struggling with self-hatred and fear, and most people don't think that's a problem.

ethan edwards

Given that we are for moral reasons totally unable to express our sexuality with children, our right to private sexual fantasy would seem imore important.

leonard johnston

You can learn a lot about me from Star Trek. It's shaped my perception of myself and my pedophilia.

A group of adolescents, many thousands strong, are struggling with self-hatred and fear, and most people don't think that's a problem.

Given that we are for moral reasons totally unable to express our sexuality with children, our right to private sexual fantasy would seem imore important.

You can learn a lot about me from Star Trek. It's shaped my perception of myself and my pedophilia.