experiences

sep 2018 to dec 2023


			17 December 2023 reflections, learnings, and critiques on an amazing pedophilia study leonard johnston Aella's survey found thousands of people with a sexual interest in kids. How should we interpret this?

			19 April 2023 in which leonard processes his feelings leonard johnston 2 of 4: I was skeptical about the claims of those saying they'd been "silenced". And then it happened to me.

			25 December 2022 happy holidays! leonard johnston From the bottom of my heart, Happy Holidays!

			30 October 2022 what made quora change its mind? leonard johnston 1 of 4: With over 1m views on 141 answers over six years, my Quora account was banned. Why?

			8 May 2022 star trek, me, and pedophilia leonard johnston You can learn a lot about me from Star Trek. It's shaped my perception of myself and my pedophilia.

			26 November 2021 let's talk about disgust leonard johnston Should we be disgusted by artificial CP or other ways pedophiles like me find sexual satisfaction?

			2 August 2021 personal reflections on difficult issues leonard johnston 6 of 6: My personal reflections on what I learned in this series.

			20 June 2021 the mysteries of happiness, and how i found it as a pedophile leonard johnston I've never seen a self-help article aimed at pedophiles, so maybe it's time for one.

			27 April 2021 interview - the journey of leaving child pornography leonard johnston 5 of 6: Anywhere that CP is discussed, no one talks about how they stopped viewing it. Now someone has.

			11 February 2021 how do you end up viewing cp, anyway? leonard johnston 4 of 6: I received a message from a man arrested for viewing CP. I asked him to tell me about it.

			30 September 2020 is artificial child pornography a good outlet? leonard johnston 2 of 6: Is artificial CP moral? Might it lead to more harm?

			24 September 2020 becoming comfortable with my attractions py A MAP's Journey from Anguish to Acceptance

			2 June 2020 a comment on the times leonard johnston How being in a minority helps me to view other minorities.

			25 May 2020 you, twenty years from now: setting your boundaries leonard johnston How do you live a safe life? For me, an important part is understanding and sticking to my boundaries.

			24 April 2020 discoveries on attraction and life partnerships leonard johnston The evolution of my sexuality and my search for a life partnership.

			18 April 2020 moments of joy leonard johnston Written during the pandemic. Take a moment, reflect. Even in difficult times, find moments of joy in your life.

			22 March 2020 a normal teenager... just a pedophile leonard johnston For some teenagers, their sexuality brings loneliness. They're not sure who they can talk to. I couldn't talk to anyone.

			8 March 2020 so you're a pedophile. now what? leonard johnston You can be a happy and morally good person, and stay true to yourself, even with these attractions.

			1 December 2019 we have to protect children, even the ones you hate bly A group of adolescents, many thousands strong, are struggling with self-hatred and fear, and most people don't think that's a problem.

			23 June 2019 thread: mutual coming out is hard bly It's hard to come out to regular people, but it can even be hard to come out to another pedophile.

			4 June 2019 suicidal thoughts vs being suicidal brett daywalker The first time I had a suicidal thought I was in 4th grade. That means I would have been 9 or 10.

			5 March 2019 attraction is not action bly In my teenaged years, I had access to a therapist, but I just never brought it up and the sessions ended without it ever being mentioned.

			25 February 2019 still a mother's son elliott bateman What parents should know regarding MAP children, A MAP and his mother discuss his coming out process, his struggle with his attractions, and finding therapeutic support.

			20 February 2019 suicide prevention with evert evert Evert and Candice discuss suicide prevention among MAPs and the differences between good treatment for MAPs and sex offender treatment.

			4 November 2018 you're a monster, piece of shit, danger to children, etc brett daywalker The god's honest truth of the matter is, hearing those types of things makes me feel nothing. Absolutely nothing at all.

			2 October 2018 and on that day, i knew what i was brett daywalker The second that explanation finished leaving her mouth, I knew it. I knew that's what I was and what I was becoming. Now I had word for it.

			2 October 2018 i am brett. i am a pedophile. here is my story brett daywalker To tell the whole story, I'd need to write a book. A very long and fucked-up book. We'll call this, the ultra, ultra abridged version.

			12 September 2018 coming out to a world that hates pedophiles gary gibson Earlier this year I did an interview for an article in The Sun, not realizing the impact it would have on our lives.

			11 September 2018 an asexual map ro west It took me a while to realize that my attraction was strongly aesthetic and potentially romantic, but not actually sexual.

			11 September 2018 married to a map bruce and gina As soon as she couldn't handle it, I was like, no, I'm done. Uh, this won't work, nice try, I'm gonna pull out, and I left.

17 December 2023

reflections, learnings, and critiques on an amazing pedophilia study
leonard johnston

Aella's survey found thousands of people with a sexual interest in kids. How should we interpret this?

19 April 2023

in which leonard processes his feelings
leonard johnston

2 of 4: I was skeptical about the claims of those saying they'd been "silenced". And then it happened to me.

25 December 2022

happy holidays!
leonard johnston

From the bottom of my heart, Happy Holidays!

30 October 2022

what made quora change its mind?
leonard johnston

1 of 4: With over 1m views on 141 answers over six years, my Quora account was banned. Why?

8 May 2022

star trek, me, and pedophilia
leonard johnston

You can learn a lot about me from Star Trek. It's shaped my perception of myself and my pedophilia.

26 November 2021

let's talk about disgust
leonard johnston

Should we be disgusted by artificial CP or other ways pedophiles like me find sexual satisfaction?

2 August 2021

personal reflections on difficult issues
leonard johnston

6 of 6: My personal reflections on what I learned in this series.

20 June 2021

the mysteries of happiness, and how i found it as a pedophile
leonard johnston

I've never seen a self-help article aimed at pedophiles, so maybe it's time for one.

27 April 2021

interview - the journey of leaving child pornography
leonard johnston

5 of 6: Anywhere that CP is discussed, no one talks about how they stopped viewing it. Now someone has.

11 February 2021

how do you end up viewing cp, anyway?
leonard johnston

4 of 6: I received a message from a man arrested for viewing CP. I asked him to tell me about it.

30 September 2020

is artificial child pornography a good outlet?
leonard johnston

2 of 6: Is artificial CP moral? Might it lead to more harm?

24 September 2020

becoming comfortable with my attractions
py

A MAP's Journey from Anguish to Acceptance

2 June 2020

a comment on the times
leonard johnston

How being in a minority helps me to view other minorities.

25 May 2020

you, twenty years from now: setting your boundaries
leonard johnston

How do you live a safe life? For me, an important part is understanding and sticking to my boundaries.

24 April 2020

discoveries on attraction and life partnerships
leonard johnston

The evolution of my sexuality and my search for a life partnership.

18 April 2020

moments of joy
leonard johnston

Written during the pandemic. Take a moment, reflect. Even in difficult times, find moments of joy in your life.

22 March 2020

a normal teenager... just a pedophile
leonard johnston

For some teenagers, their sexuality brings loneliness. They're not sure who they can talk to. I couldn't talk to anyone.

8 March 2020

so you're a pedophile. now what?
leonard johnston

You can be a happy and morally good person, and stay true to yourself, even with these attractions.

1 December 2019

we have to protect children, even the ones you hate
bly

A group of adolescents, many thousands strong, are struggling with self-hatred and fear, and most people don't think that's a problem.

23 June 2019

thread: mutual coming out is hard
bly

It's hard to come out to regular people, but it can even be hard to come out to another pedophile.

4 June 2019

suicidal thoughts vs being suicidal
brett daywalker

The first time I had a suicidal thought I was in 4th grade. That means I would have been 9 or 10.

5 March 2019

attraction is not action
bly

In my teenaged years, I had access to a therapist, but I just never brought it up and the sessions ended without it ever being mentioned.

25 February 2019

still a mother's son
elliott bateman

What parents should know regarding MAP children, A MAP and his mother discuss his coming out process, his struggle with his attractions, and finding therapeutic support.

20 February 2019

suicide prevention with evert
evert

Evert and Candice discuss suicide prevention among MAPs and the differences between good treatment for MAPs and sex offender treatment.

4 November 2018

you're a monster, piece of shit, danger to children, etc
brett daywalker

The god's honest truth of the matter is, hearing those types of things makes me feel nothing. Absolutely nothing at all.

2 October 2018

and on that day, i knew what i was
brett daywalker

The second that explanation finished leaving her mouth, I knew it. I knew that's what I was and what I was becoming. Now I had word for it.

2 October 2018

i am brett. i am a pedophile. here is my story
brett daywalker

To tell the whole story, I'd need to write a book. A very long and fucked-up book. We'll call this, the ultra, ultra abridged version.

12 September 2018

coming out to a world that hates pedophiles
gary gibson

Earlier this year I did an interview for an article in The Sun, not realizing the impact it would have on our lives.

11 September 2018

an asexual map
ro west

It took me a while to realize that my attraction was strongly aesthetic and potentially romantic, but not actually sexual.

11 September 2018

married to a map
bruce and gina

As soon as she couldn't handle it, I was like, no, I'm done. Uh, this won't work, nice try, I'm gonna pull out, and I left.

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