experiences

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oldest: sep 2015 to jun 2019


			23 June 2019 thread: mutual coming out is hard bly It's hard to come out to regular people, but it can even be hard to come out to another pedophile.

			4 June 2019 suicidal thoughts vs being suicidal brett daywalker The first time I had a suicidal thought I was in 4th grade. That means I would have been 9 or 10.

			5 March 2019 attraction is not action bly In my teenaged years, I had access to a therapist, but I just never brought it up and the sessions ended without it ever being mentioned.

			25 February 2019 still a mother's son elliott bateman What parents should know regarding MAP children, A MAP and his mother discuss his coming out process, his struggle with his attractions, and finding therapeutic support.

			20 February 2019 suicide prevention with evert evert Evert and Candice discuss suicide prevention among MAPs and the differences between good treatment for MAPs and sex offender treatment.

			2 October 2018 and on that day, i knew what i was brett daywalker The second that explanation finished leaving her mouth, I knew it. I knew that's what I was and what I was becoming. Now I had word for it.

			2 October 2018 i am brett. i am a pedophile. here is my story brett daywalker To tell the whole story, I'd need to write a book. A very long and fucked-up book. We'll call this, the ultra, ultra abridged version.

			12 September 2018 coming out to a world that hates pedophiles gary gibson Earlier this year I did an interview for an article in The Sun, not realizing the impact it would have on our lives.

			11 September 2018 an asexual map ro west It took me a while to realize that my attraction was strongly aesthetic and potentially romantic, but not actually sexual.

			11 September 2018 married to a map bruce and gina As soon as she couldn't handle it, I was like, no, I'm done. Uh, this won't work, nice try, I'm gonna pull out, and I left.

			7 September 2018 we just want a little air to breathe evert One of the things we often hear is about the normalization of pedophilia. Our agenda is absolutely not 'normalization of pedophilia', that's far away. We just want a little air to breathe.

			30 July 2018 i needed to be caught: interview with jay global prevention project I needed to be caught. It was the jolt I needed in my life to sort it out. It's cost me almost everything, but my life is in such a good, positive direction now.

			23 April 2018 she was, like, no beth I've been through a lot of therapists, but the first one... I said "I'm attracted to children... are you still comfortable working with me?" And she just kind of stared at me and she was like "No."

			9 April 2018 sex offender, anti-contact pedophile aydne I kinda worked myself into this mindframe where, well if I'm gonna be a monster anyway... and that kinda set the backdrop for what ended up happening.

			26 March 2018 bold and brave todd nickerson Right around the time that I outed myself, this group, Perverted Justice, showed up, and started a harassment campaign... I was one of the first they targeted.

			12 March 2018 a conservative pedophile bertus I prefer the term conservative pedophile. It is a term I picked up and resonated more with me than virtuous or anti-contact.

			26 February 2018 millennial map dillon dillon His result was that I was at a 'moderate risk factor' to molest a child. And it really annoyed me, and I really felt judged. Like, is that all you see me as? As a risk factor?

			29 January 2018 thousands of individuals bruce I had downplayed my sexuality my whole life, from my youth, I would control my thoughts and try not to objectify anybody...

			16 January 2018 the first time i didn't view child pornography bly Child sexual abuse material, known legally as child pornography, is a blight on children's lives. But what if you're the kind of person it's aimed at?

			1 January 2018 emma, a female pedophile emma artless When I first joined and I did see that there were testimonials and stories from other women who had grown up with the same experience as me, I actually started crying.

			1 January 2018 a strange and terrible unicorn emma artless The musings of a non-offending, female pedophile

			1 September 2016 jacob wetterling's killer danny heinrich, and 14 year old me brett daywalker I'll never forget when I first learned of the Wetterling abduction. I was 14 years old at the time and was sitting in the Atlanta airport.

			21 June 2016 comfortably numb ender a journey through realization, despair, lethargy, awakening and acceptance

			30 September 2015 i'm a pedophile, you're the monsters: my week inside the vile right-wing hate machine todd nickerson My pedophilia essay outraged the right. My attempt to humanize a real problem brought out their nastiest rage

			21 September 2015 i'm a pedophile, but not a monster todd nickerson I'm attracted to children but unwilling to act on it. Before judging me harshly, would you be willing to listen?

23 June 2019

thread: mutual coming out is hard
bly

It's hard to come out to regular people, but it can even be hard to come out to another pedophile.

4 June 2019

suicidal thoughts vs being suicidal
brett daywalker

The first time I had a suicidal thought I was in 4th grade. That means I would have been 9 or 10.

5 March 2019

attraction is not action
bly

In my teenaged years, I had access to a therapist, but I just never brought it up and the sessions ended without it ever being mentioned.

25 February 2019

still a mother's son
elliott bateman

What parents should know regarding MAP children, A MAP and his mother discuss his coming out process, his struggle with his attractions, and finding therapeutic support.

20 February 2019

suicide prevention with evert
evert

Evert and Candice discuss suicide prevention among MAPs and the differences between good treatment for MAPs and sex offender treatment.

2 October 2018

and on that day, i knew what i was
brett daywalker

The second that explanation finished leaving her mouth, I knew it. I knew that's what I was and what I was becoming. Now I had word for it.

2 October 2018

i am brett. i am a pedophile. here is my story
brett daywalker

To tell the whole story, I'd need to write a book. A very long and fucked-up book. We'll call this, the ultra, ultra abridged version.

12 September 2018

coming out to a world that hates pedophiles
gary gibson

Earlier this year I did an interview for an article in The Sun, not realizing the impact it would have on our lives.

11 September 2018

an asexual map
ro west

It took me a while to realize that my attraction was strongly aesthetic and potentially romantic, but not actually sexual.

11 September 2018

married to a map
bruce and gina

As soon as she couldn't handle it, I was like, no, I'm done. Uh, this won't work, nice try, I'm gonna pull out, and I left.

7 September 2018

we just want a little air to breathe
evert

One of the things we often hear is about the normalization of pedophilia. Our agenda is absolutely not 'normalization of pedophilia', that's far away. We just want a little air to breathe.

30 July 2018

i needed to be caught: interview with jay
global prevention project

I needed to be caught. It was the jolt I needed in my life to sort it out. It's cost me almost everything, but my life is in such a good, positive direction now.

23 April 2018

she was, like, no
beth

I've been through a lot of therapists, but the first one... I said "I'm attracted to children... are you still comfortable working with me?" And she just kind of stared at me and she was like "No."

9 April 2018

sex offender, anti-contact pedophile
aydne

I kinda worked myself into this mindframe where, well if I'm gonna be a monster anyway... and that kinda set the backdrop for what ended up happening.

26 March 2018

bold and brave
todd nickerson

Right around the time that I outed myself, this group, Perverted Justice, showed up, and started a harassment campaign... I was one of the first they targeted.

12 March 2018

a conservative pedophile
bertus

I prefer the term conservative pedophile. It is a term I picked up and resonated more with me than virtuous or anti-contact.

26 February 2018

millennial map dillon
dillon

His result was that I was at a 'moderate risk factor' to molest a child. And it really annoyed me, and I really felt judged. Like, is that all you see me as? As a risk factor?

29 January 2018

thousands of individuals
bruce

I had downplayed my sexuality my whole life, from my youth, I would control my thoughts and try not to objectify anybody...

16 January 2018

the first time i didn't view child pornography
bly

Child sexual abuse material, known legally as child pornography, is a blight on children's lives. But what if you're the kind of person it's aimed at?

1 January 2018

emma, a female pedophile
emma artless

When I first joined and I did see that there were testimonials and stories from other women who had grown up with the same experience as me, I actually started crying.

1 January 2018

a strange and terrible unicorn
emma artless

The musings of a non-offending, female pedophile

1 September 2016

jacob wetterling's killer danny heinrich, and 14 year old me
brett daywalker

I'll never forget when I first learned of the Wetterling abduction. I was 14 years old at the time and was sitting in the Atlanta airport.

21 June 2016

comfortably numb
ender

a journey through realization, despair, lethargy, awakening and acceptance

30 September 2015

i'm a pedophile, you're the monsters: my week inside the vile right-wing hate machine
todd nickerson

My pedophilia essay outraged the right. My attempt to humanize a real problem brought out their nastiest rage

21 September 2015

i'm a pedophile, but not a monster
todd nickerson

I'm attracted to children but unwilling to act on it. Before judging me harshly, would you be willing to listen?