experiences

jan 2018 to sep 2020


			24 September 2020 becoming comfortable with my attractions py A MAP's Journey from Anguish to Acceptance

			2 June 2020 a comment on the times leonard johnston How being in a minority helps me to view other minorities.

			25 May 2020 you, twenty years from now: setting your boundaries leonard johnston How do you live a safe life? For me, an important part is understanding and sticking to my boundaries.

			24 April 2020 discoveries on attraction and life partnerships leonard johnston The evolution of my sexuality and my search for a life partnership.

			18 April 2020 moments of joy leonard johnston Written during the pandemic. Take a moment, reflect. Even in difficult times, find moments of joy in your life.

			22 March 2020 a normal teenager... just a pedophile leonard johnston For some teenagers, their sexuality brings loneliness. They're not sure who they can talk to. I couldn't talk to anyone.

			8 March 2020 so you're a pedophile. now what? leonard johnston You can be a happy and morally good person, and stay true to yourself, even with these attractions.

			1 December 2019 we have to protect children, even the ones you hate bly A group of adolescents, many thousands strong, are struggling with self-hatred and fear, and most people don't think that's a problem.

			23 June 2019 thread: mutual coming out is hard bly It's hard to come out to regular people, but it can even be hard to come out to another pedophile.

			4 June 2019 suicidal thoughts vs being suicidal brett daywalker The first time I had a suicidal thought I was in 4th grade. That means I would have been 9 or 10.

			5 March 2019 attraction is not action bly In my teenaged years, I had access to a therapist, but I just never brought it up and the sessions ended without it ever being mentioned.

			25 February 2019 still a mother's son elliott bateman What parents should know regarding MAP children, A MAP and his mother discuss his coming out process, his struggle with his attractions, and finding therapeutic support.

			20 February 2019 suicide prevention with evert evert Evert and Candice discuss suicide prevention among MAPs and the differences between good treatment for MAPs and sex offender treatment.

			4 November 2018 you're a monster, piece of shit, danger to children, etc brett daywalker The god's honest truth of the matter is, hearing those types of things makes me feel nothing. Absolutely nothing at all.

			2 October 2018 and on that day, i knew what i was brett daywalker The second that explanation finished leaving her mouth, I knew it. I knew that's what I was and what I was becoming. Now I had word for it.

			2 October 2018 i am brett. i am a pedophile. here is my story brett daywalker To tell the whole story, I'd need to write a book. A very long and fucked-up book. We'll call this, the ultra, ultra abridged version.

			12 September 2018 coming out to a world that hates pedophiles gary gibson Earlier this year I did an interview for an article in The Sun, not realizing the impact it would have on our lives.

			11 September 2018 an asexual map ro west It took me a while to realize that my attraction was strongly aesthetic and potentially romantic, but not actually sexual.

			11 September 2018 married to a map bruce and gina As soon as she couldn't handle it, I was like, no, I'm done. Uh, this won't work, nice try, I'm gonna pull out, and I left.

			7 September 2018 we just want a little air to breathe evert One of the things we often hear is about the normalization of pedophilia. Our agenda is absolutely not 'normalization of pedophilia', that's far away. We just want a little air to breathe.

			30 July 2018 i needed to be caught: interview with jay global prevention project I needed to be caught. It was the jolt I needed in my life to sort it out. It's cost me almost everything, but my life is in such a good, positive direction now.

			7 May 2018 your mind changes you jakob I was a very confused teenager, and I actually went from being straight in my own mind to being gay. And, you know, then being a pedophile...

			23 April 2018 she was, like, no beth I've been through a lot of therapists, but the first one... I said "I'm attracted to children... are you still comfortable working with me?" And she just kind of stared at me and she was like "No."

			9 April 2018 sex offender, anti-contact pedophile aydne I kinda worked myself into this mindframe where, well if I'm gonna be a monster anyway... and that kinda set the backdrop for what ended up happening.

			26 March 2018 bold and brave todd nickerson Right around the time that I outed myself, this group, Perverted Justice, showed up, and started a harassment campaign... I was one of the first they targeted.

			12 March 2018 a conservative pedophile bertus I prefer the term conservative pedophile. It is a term I picked up and resonated more with me than virtuous or anti-contact.

			26 February 2018 millennial map dillon dillon His result was that I was at a 'moderate risk factor' to molest a child. And it really annoyed me, and I really felt judged. Like, is that all you see me as? As a risk factor?

			29 January 2018 thousands of individuals bruce I had downplayed my sexuality my whole life, from my youth, I would control my thoughts and try not to objectify anybody...

			16 January 2018 the first time i didn't view child pornography bly Child sexual abuse material, known legally as child pornography, is a blight on children's lives. But what if you're the kind of person it's aimed at?

			1 January 2018 emma, a female pedophile emma artless When I first joined and I did see that there were testimonials and stories from other women who had grown up with the same experience as me, I actually started crying.

24 September 2020

becoming comfortable with my attractions
py

A MAP's Journey from Anguish to Acceptance

2 June 2020

a comment on the times
leonard johnston

How being in a minority helps me to view other minorities.

25 May 2020

you, twenty years from now: setting your boundaries
leonard johnston

How do you live a safe life? For me, an important part is understanding and sticking to my boundaries.

24 April 2020

discoveries on attraction and life partnerships
leonard johnston

The evolution of my sexuality and my search for a life partnership.

18 April 2020

moments of joy
leonard johnston

Written during the pandemic. Take a moment, reflect. Even in difficult times, find moments of joy in your life.

22 March 2020

a normal teenager... just a pedophile
leonard johnston

For some teenagers, their sexuality brings loneliness. They're not sure who they can talk to. I couldn't talk to anyone.

8 March 2020

so you're a pedophile. now what?
leonard johnston

You can be a happy and morally good person, and stay true to yourself, even with these attractions.

1 December 2019

we have to protect children, even the ones you hate
bly

A group of adolescents, many thousands strong, are struggling with self-hatred and fear, and most people don't think that's a problem.

23 June 2019

thread: mutual coming out is hard
bly

It's hard to come out to regular people, but it can even be hard to come out to another pedophile.

4 June 2019

suicidal thoughts vs being suicidal
brett daywalker

The first time I had a suicidal thought I was in 4th grade. That means I would have been 9 or 10.

5 March 2019

attraction is not action
bly

In my teenaged years, I had access to a therapist, but I just never brought it up and the sessions ended without it ever being mentioned.

25 February 2019

still a mother's son
elliott bateman

What parents should know regarding MAP children, A MAP and his mother discuss his coming out process, his struggle with his attractions, and finding therapeutic support.

20 February 2019

suicide prevention with evert
evert

Evert and Candice discuss suicide prevention among MAPs and the differences between good treatment for MAPs and sex offender treatment.

4 November 2018

you're a monster, piece of shit, danger to children, etc
brett daywalker

The god's honest truth of the matter is, hearing those types of things makes me feel nothing. Absolutely nothing at all.

2 October 2018

and on that day, i knew what i was
brett daywalker

The second that explanation finished leaving her mouth, I knew it. I knew that's what I was and what I was becoming. Now I had word for it.

2 October 2018

i am brett. i am a pedophile. here is my story
brett daywalker

To tell the whole story, I'd need to write a book. A very long and fucked-up book. We'll call this, the ultra, ultra abridged version.

12 September 2018

coming out to a world that hates pedophiles
gary gibson

Earlier this year I did an interview for an article in The Sun, not realizing the impact it would have on our lives.

11 September 2018

an asexual map
ro west

It took me a while to realize that my attraction was strongly aesthetic and potentially romantic, but not actually sexual.

11 September 2018

married to a map
bruce and gina

As soon as she couldn't handle it, I was like, no, I'm done. Uh, this won't work, nice try, I'm gonna pull out, and I left.

7 September 2018

we just want a little air to breathe
evert

One of the things we often hear is about the normalization of pedophilia. Our agenda is absolutely not 'normalization of pedophilia', that's far away. We just want a little air to breathe.

30 July 2018

i needed to be caught: interview with jay
global prevention project

I needed to be caught. It was the jolt I needed in my life to sort it out. It's cost me almost everything, but my life is in such a good, positive direction now.

7 May 2018

your mind changes you
jakob

I was a very confused teenager, and I actually went from being straight in my own mind to being gay. And, you know, then being a pedophile...

23 April 2018

she was, like, no
beth

I've been through a lot of therapists, but the first one... I said "I'm attracted to children... are you still comfortable working with me?" And she just kind of stared at me and she was like "No."

9 April 2018

sex offender, anti-contact pedophile
aydne

I kinda worked myself into this mindframe where, well if I'm gonna be a monster anyway... and that kinda set the backdrop for what ended up happening.

26 March 2018

bold and brave
todd nickerson

Right around the time that I outed myself, this group, Perverted Justice, showed up, and started a harassment campaign... I was one of the first they targeted.

12 March 2018

a conservative pedophile
bertus

I prefer the term conservative pedophile. It is a term I picked up and resonated more with me than virtuous or anti-contact.

26 February 2018

millennial map dillon
dillon

His result was that I was at a 'moderate risk factor' to molest a child. And it really annoyed me, and I really felt judged. Like, is that all you see me as? As a risk factor?

29 January 2018

thousands of individuals
bruce

I had downplayed my sexuality my whole life, from my youth, I would control my thoughts and try not to objectify anybody...

16 January 2018

the first time i didn't view child pornography
bly

Child sexual abuse material, known legally as child pornography, is a blight on children's lives. But what if you're the kind of person it's aimed at?

1 January 2018

emma, a female pedophile
emma artless

When I first joined and I did see that there were testimonials and stories from other women who had grown up with the same experience as me, I actually started crying.

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