It's hard to come out to regular people, but it can even be hard to come out to another pedophile.

In my 20s, I came out as MAP to a friend who I believed to be MAP and who initially seemed to signal that I was right.

But then he backed off, talked about it as my problem, something that he couldn't help with. Both were probably true but I felt so abandoned.

Then, worse... >

> some years later I found myself in the reversed role, with a younger friend who told me that he had these feelings too.

But by then I had a career, reasons why anyone knowing would be terrifying. When he asked me if I was MAP, I denied it, despite knowing I was.

Since then >

> another decade on, someone else in the same situation as me in his 20s asked me the same question, and after some squirming I knew it would be wrong to make him feel alone when he wasn't.

So I fessed up and it catapaulted me into finally joining the ACMAP community.

This >

> has complicated my life further. I still have things to lose and life seems more dangerous.

But I am not alone, and being among others in the same situation has allowed me to learn, assess, discover and find acceptance I never thought possible.

I hope I always have the >

> bravery in future to reach out and offer the same to younger MAPs who really need to tell someone, and never leave someone feeling more isolated, regretting the most difficult honesty they had to show. ::

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