poem:
ants,
1986

poem:
ants,
1986

11 May 2025    
from kidstruck

benjamin harker 

 

There was something familiar / about the way you milled, accelerated / when that little playground rock / was first upturned

 


There was something familiar
about the way you milled, accelerated
when that little playground rock
was first upturned,

how you
galloped panicked
when the crunch
of an unjust sky hand
picked the first one off at random.

How predictable, pathetic
your dash
for new shelter,
trying to fit under, in, behind
for a few heartstopping
fractions of a second

before terror compelled you
to make a futile scurry
for ten more seconds of life.

Victim, you had my slender thumb
in your destiny. I merely
spectated those final
out-of-mind
sick-with-fear
moments,
myself a puppet of
life-isn't-fair.

I stuffed your crushed remains
into a tiny hole in a patio stone
and killed again.

I didn't hesitate,
though I knew myself
what it was to scurry

 

 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 

in april, i open my bill

 

poem: a theft, 1988

 

poem: fleisch, 1989

   

benjamin harker

Paedophiles do not pursue the lives of cuckoos purposefully. We begin loved and welcomed. We are babies, then children and we grow up alongside you.

 

benjamin harker

It was only a stolen kiss, / on the cheek, snaffled by darting in / over your shoulder, during registration, / while you talked to your friend,

 

benjamin harker

One day in German, blond arrogant boy, / you engaged me unexpectedly. / Before too long I punched your nose,

 
 
 
in april, i open my bill
benjamin harker

Paedophiles do not pursue the lives of cuckoos purposefully. We begin loved and welcomed. We are babies, then children and we grow up alongside you.

 
 
 
poem: a theft, 1988
benjamin harker

It was only a stolen kiss, / on the cheek, snaffled by darting in / over your shoulder, during registration, / while you talked to your friend,

 
 
 
poem: fleisch, 1989
benjamin harker

One day in German, blond arrogant boy, / you engaged me unexpectedly. / Before too long I punched your nose,