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|  | | 24 June 2025
the rough country: finding mental health support iris We are human. Why is it so hard to find mental health professionals who can see that? |
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|  | | 21 June 2025
poem: oven brandon goletzski the summer is at its full weight / i stand in the air-conditioned kitchen looking out from the window (why / is it that so much happens at kitchen windows?) |
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|  | | 17 June 2025
when i chose pedophilia anonymous When did you choose your sexual and/or romantic attraction pattern? What alternatives did you consider? Did you take advice on it before you decided? Were you pleased with what you chose or did you later exchange it? |
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|  | | 10 June 2025
chronologically wrong: a transage map anonymous Some MAPs have a strong concept of themselves as a child, which takes various forms. Someone identifying as transage explains how it feels. |
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|  | | 3 June 2025
every day, forever hula Being a MAP is a large and constant part of the equation. Not a day goes by when I don't think about the fact that I'm attracted to children. If I weren't so active in online MAP communities, my attraction to children would weigh on my mind a lot more. |
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|  | | 27 May 2025
double life anonymous One life was lived as a heterosexual non-pedophile and the other as a bisexual pedophile. I didn’t want to just break it off with her, as I didn’t want to hurt her. So, we got married. |
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|  | | 20 May 2025
not a question of guilt iceground At 11, I left the countryside for a big city in Columbia. One day, a 20 year old man gained my trust after a long time talking. He had a network of child exploitation and I fell into it. |
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|  | | 17 May 2025
a coming out guide for brave maps brandon goletzski People need to know that someone they love is a pedophile. If you're considering coming out to someone, here are my tips for doing it well |
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|  | | 13 May 2025
do maps disown the p word? lecter Some people say the term MAP is synonymous with pedophile. Others act like choosing the map label means rejecting the pedophile label. Neither is actually true to our experience. |
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|  | | 6 May 2025
never say die: the hard rules of suicide and map talk bly We deal with the topic of suicide similarly to the topic of pedophilia: denial, pre-formed narratives and a fear of listening to details of the truth. |
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|  | | 6 May 2025
on mary oliver's wild geese james peak Unrequited love, impossible love, stupid, foolish love. My heart is broken, but so is the poet’s. |
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|  | | 4 May 2025
two way mirror: pedophiles coming out to one another bly Two people simultaneously and silently ask, I'm one of the good ones, but are you? |
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|  | | 2 May 2025
the rest of the list bly A new podcast from the BBC highlights the gap between the popular assumption that known pedophiles are removed somehow from society and the reality that they are not. Why does this gap exist? |
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|  | | 2 May 2025
nitro in person py He dropped me off at the airport one last time, and he hugged me again. He wasn't crying this time. Instead, he mentioned that it may not be the last time he'd see me. But it was. |
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|  | | 29 April 2025
good freaks and good friends charlie keyes In my mid-twenties. I found VirPed. I read words that were my thoughts, and my experiences. And I cannot express how good that felt. |
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|  | | 23 April 2025
nitro: a community says goodbye virped members Nitro, who has died aged 73, is remembered by members of the VirPed community. |
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|  | | 22 April 2025
lawful good: writing a nomap character tom jones As I wrote the scenes where his attractions are revealed, it was my own coming out story all over again. |
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|  | | 15 April 2025
nitro's final thoughts nitro I am a pedophile. I've made over 18,000 posts on the VirPed forum since 2015. I am dying. |
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|  | | 8 April 2025
mouse trapped: i was channel 4's masked pedophile anonymous In 2023, I appeared anonymously with a Channel 4 panel talking about my sexual attraction to children. It's clear we don't yet know how to have this conversation. |
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|  | | 1 April 2025
is pedophilia an orientation or a disorder? bly The key question that public and experts are debating to understand the nature of attraction to children. |
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|  | | 25 March 2025
life is not a decision: a pedophile parent charlie keyes I decided, with every factor in play, that above all, I was going to be a damned good parent |
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|  | | 18 March 2025
caught between two stigmas markus I was sexually abused as a child. I am also sexually attracted to children. I wanted support for abuse survivors but was turned down. So where do people like me go? |
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|  | | 11 March 2025
i didn't figure out i was a pedophile until my 50s ethan edwards Looking back, it was there from puberty, but I was interpreting it as the fondness many adults feel for children. |
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|  | | 4 March 2025
two pedophiles; one moral binary; no dogs bly I'd give a lot for a crime-free thriller instead, but No Dogs Allowed tells a lot of truth about a young pedophile's life |
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|  | | 25 February 2025
the night i said the p word rakkaus keksit I’d agreed to meet my long-time friend one last time before I left. I hadn’t taken into account hash or female intuition. |
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|  | | 18 February 2025
a year of therapy carolus magnus When I started, I wanted that magic pill. I wanted the lobotomy that would pull this malignant sector of my brain out.
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|  | | 11 February 2025
a minor pedophile reached out... into the wild west bly So I sought out people like me. I would go on those sketchy teen/tween chat rooms, explaining that I was a minor looking for someone to talk to. |
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|  | | 4 February 2025
no dogs allowed discussed by three pedophiles markus No Dogs Allowed dares to tell a realistic story about us and breaks with a false image that has been painted too often. |
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|  | | 28 January 2025
review: no dogs allowed py A new film portrays the life of a teenager who discovers he is sexually attracted to children and how he tries to cope. |
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|  | | 21 January 2025
review: manticore rakkaus keksit Disgraced director's film brings an elevated aesthetic to a contemporary tragedy of dark desires, but does it get the situation right? |
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24 June 2025
the rough country: finding mental health support irisWe are human. Why is it so hard to find mental health professionals who can see that? |
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21 June 2025
poem: oven brandon goletzskithe summer is at its full weight / i stand in the air-conditioned kitchen looking out from the window (why / is it that so much happens at kitchen windows?) |
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17 June 2025
when i chose pedophilia anonymousWhen did you choose your sexual and/or romantic attraction pattern? What alternatives did you consider? Did you take advice on it before you decided? Were you pleased with what you chose or did you later exchange it? |
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10 June 2025
chronologically wrong: a transage map anonymousSome MAPs have a strong concept of themselves as a child, which takes various forms. Someone identifying as transage explains how it feels. |
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3 June 2025
every day, forever hulaBeing a MAP is a large and constant part of the equation. Not a day goes by when I don't think about the fact that I'm attracted to children. If I weren't so active in online MAP communities, my attraction to children would weigh on my mind a lot more. |
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27 May 2025
double life anonymousOne life was lived as a heterosexual non-pedophile and the other as a bisexual pedophile. I didn’t want to just break it off with her, as I didn’t want to hurt her. So, we got married. |
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20 May 2025
not a question of guilt icegroundAt 11, I left the countryside for a big city in Columbia. One day, a 20 year old man gained my trust after a long time talking. He had a network of child exploitation and I fell into it. |
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17 May 2025
a coming out guide for brave maps brandon goletzskiPeople need to know that someone they love is a pedophile. If you're considering coming out to someone, here are my tips for doing it well |
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13 May 2025
do maps disown the p word? lecterSome people say the term MAP is synonymous with pedophile. Others act like choosing the map label means rejecting the pedophile label. Neither is actually true to our experience. |
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6 May 2025
never say die: the hard rules of suicide and map talk blyWe deal with the topic of suicide similarly to the topic of pedophilia: denial, pre-formed narratives and a fear of listening to details of the truth. |
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6 May 2025
on mary oliver's wild geese james peakUnrequited love, impossible love, stupid, foolish love. My heart is broken, but so is the poet’s. |
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4 May 2025
two way mirror: pedophiles coming out to one another blyTwo people simultaneously and silently ask, I'm one of the good ones, but are you? |
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2 May 2025
the rest of the list blyA new podcast from the BBC highlights the gap between the popular assumption that known pedophiles are removed somehow from society and the reality that they are not. Why does this gap exist? |
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2 May 2025
nitro in person pyHe dropped me off at the airport one last time, and he hugged me again. He wasn't crying this time. Instead, he mentioned that it may not be the last time he'd see me. But it was. |
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29 April 2025
good freaks and good friends charlie keyesIn my mid-twenties. I found VirPed. I read words that were my thoughts, and my experiences. And I cannot express how good that felt. |
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23 April 2025
nitro: a community says goodbye virped membersNitro, who has died aged 73, is remembered by members of the VirPed community. |
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22 April 2025
lawful good: writing a nomap character tom jonesAs I wrote the scenes where his attractions are revealed, it was my own coming out story all over again. |
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15 April 2025
nitro's final thoughts nitroI am a pedophile. I've made over 18,000 posts on the VirPed forum since 2015. I am dying. |
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8 April 2025
mouse trapped: i was channel 4's masked pedophile anonymousIn 2023, I appeared anonymously with a Channel 4 panel talking about my sexual attraction to children. It's clear we don't yet know how to have this conversation. |
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1 April 2025
is pedophilia an orientation or a disorder? blyThe key question that public and experts are debating to understand the nature of attraction to children. |
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25 March 2025
life is not a decision: a pedophile parent charlie keyesI decided, with every factor in play, that above all, I was going to be a damned good parent |
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18 March 2025
caught between two stigmas markusI was sexually abused as a child. I am also sexually attracted to children. I wanted support for abuse survivors but was turned down. So where do people like me go? |
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11 March 2025
i didn't figure out i was a pedophile until my 50s ethan edwardsLooking back, it was there from puberty, but I was interpreting it as the fondness many adults feel for children. |
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4 March 2025
two pedophiles; one moral binary; no dogs blyI'd give a lot for a crime-free thriller instead, but No Dogs Allowed tells a lot of truth about a young pedophile's life |
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25 February 2025
the night i said the p word rakkaus keksitI’d agreed to meet my long-time friend one last time before I left. I hadn’t taken into account hash or female intuition. |
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18 February 2025
a year of therapy carolus magnusWhen I started, I wanted that magic pill. I wanted the lobotomy that would pull this malignant sector of my brain out.
|
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11 February 2025
a minor pedophile reached out... into the wild west blySo I sought out people like me. I would go on those sketchy teen/tween chat rooms, explaining that I was a minor looking for someone to talk to. |
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4 February 2025
no dogs allowed discussed by three pedophiles markusNo Dogs Allowed dares to tell a realistic story about us and breaks with a false image that has been painted too often. |
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28 January 2025
review: no dogs allowed pyA new film portrays the life of a teenager who discovers he is sexually attracted to children and how he tries to cope. |
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21 January 2025
review: manticore rakkaus keksitDisgraced director's film brings an elevated aesthetic to a contemporary tragedy of dark desires, but does it get the situation right? |
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